What I can't sayI don't know what it is about me but I love to write. I have to. These words jumble off the tips of my thoughts and onto this paper and I have to keep at it. Maybe I think that whatever tomorrow brings will be disastrous and I want someone to hear what I have to say. I want someone to hear these words I can't say myself, these words and meanings I can't explain other than this way.I'm sitting here trying to calm myself, trying to find a reason why I should. When I get yelled at and screamed at by the top at their lungs and I can feel myself falling into a corner. No one knows why I'm so tense, why I can't control what I'm feeling. I want to run and to scream but I can't because I am not allowed. So I sit here and keep my mouth closed because that's all I can do.No matter how I act, I get blamed and cussed at and ridiculed and told that I'm hated. My mind is shaking away thoughts that I
Charlie's poemYou asked me to write a poem so here's what I have to say.You're completely hard to deal with and I feel like sometimes I can get you to come out of your shell but it never lasts long. You crawl back under the rock and wait and see if you can trust what's right in front of you. I want you to trust me and to believe that I care for you in so many ways. I want to be the person who you let help you and believes in you. I've been watching from afar for so long now and I'm scared that my breath will lose all control and I'll lose you.My heart is sinking when I know that you hide your feelings in nonchalance, but you really care. You want someone to be there for you but you want them to want to. You don't ask for help and at some times I think of you as strong. But not the way you think. You're someone who has always been there for me and even though you don't care, you're still there. You're
Death in a tub by noneI lye in this tub that's full of my tears and think of how silent it is. It is silent because no one is here for me and the only sound is the bellowing escape of my tears landing in the acid water. I am alone and I can hear the quiet ringing in my ears reminding me that the only being around me is the demon that is my reflection in this pool.I glide my hand against the liquid and drops cover my palm, this skin and bone, and turn my flesh another color. A sunburn pink reveals itself onto my knuckles showing a faint prick of white underneath. This is what I'm made of. And it's not a question; it's the mere truth I realize as my naked body begins to sweat. Drops of perspiration drip into the water joining their brothers and sisters called sadness. I look myself over and see pale legs and a fragile waste of a human. I can't stand and keep myself up so why was I born with these stilts?
Dear SummerDear Summer,I know the only reason we became close was because of a lie, when the truth was all we really wanted but I love you. I don't think that we deserve to go through a heart breaking story and a plot that was created for twisted pleasure by the boy I fell in love with. I think that we're doing the right thing by getting the truth out to every girl who has had her heart broken, ripped and shredded to bite size pieces.And to every girl we're settling the score, we're bringing piece to the never ending sickening torture we go through when all we want is for someone to care, and to be honest. Because every girl just wants that one special boy to tell the truth and to stop piercing lies into our already vulnerable hearts. And because every girl deserves to be able to fight back of this disease they call boys. Boys who tell us they love us and then turn around with a smirk in their eyes and a match in their hands.To every girl
SmileSmile.Smile because happiness looks good on you and when you are happy I am happy and we can start a whole chain reaction of smiles. You and I and our perky smiles can start a snowball effect where we're looking up at the stars that gleam light on our smiles.Smile.Smile because your dreams will be filled with love and friendship and laughter because a smile is just the beginning of the perfection of our laughter. In this moment I'll catch a picture perfect memory where your smile brings on the curiosity of bystanders all around.Smile.Smile because it's the start of creativity and it turns all hearts that are breaking aglow and makes the world go 'round when all insanity is amuck. Smile because this passion for happiness is what keeps us alive and I just love seeing you smile.Smile.Smile because when you smile your eyes are bright and you make me feel like one in a million with your triple watt smile.
You twoI'm tongue twisted with the idea that you're helping me get through this. You may not realize this but I don't think about how he stopped my heavy heart when you're around. You turned these aching wishes into picture perfect scenes.All through that year I couldn't understand why you felt such a hatred for me. Now I can see that I left you on the side of the road with nothing to bear your pain. I promise darling, I won't make that same mistake again.He broke my heart, shattered it with his electric eyes and I can feel your brilliant smile bringing me back to life.