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Save me from myselfPlease hear me when I say I need you to save me from myself. I can't scream because the sounds are muffled by my own hands. And I need you to pick me up before I fall from the clouds I was once sleeping on. Because you are all the support I'll receive.
I need to be honest with you. I'm not as happy as I make you seem. There is sorrow that fills my heart and lungs where acid used to lay at the bottom. I have too many scars on my body lined up in rows so that I list dates in the spaces. I won't erase them from my memory because I don't deserve that kind of treatment.
Push yourself to find the center piece that is missing from me. Hand it to me with steady hands so that I won't be afraid to take it from you. (Like candy from a stranger.) And maybe one day I will thank you for your kindness.
I'll kill myself in the making. Just please hear me when I say I need you to save me from
Her own saviorI paint a picture of myself and I'm not sure what I see. There is a girl for sure and she's sitting on a stairwell, head in her hands, smile on her face. She is thinking with her eyes open and staring wide ahead, blue and bright, and full of mysterious thoughts that she won't let anyone read. She stares away at the sky crossed with those white clouds. And keeps away a haunting she won't say aloud.
And here she is, with a smile that is held high all day long. Will you save her soul when the clouds darken and cover the sun that brightens her day? Will you free her thoughts when the rain begins to fall on her perfect holiday? Because someone once promised to be her angel and they failed, but will you be the one to keep her safe through out her lifetime?
This picture is colored in, flowers popping through the green grass that that girl's feet rest on. Her hand travels down and pinks a fresh lily, white
I burn tonightI burn tonight, intoxicated by your presence and the perfection that reflects off your once white wings. I burn because I'm being given a second to rise from the ashes of a sorrow filled girl. Neglect and abuse have taken their toll on me and I find myself falling when I attempt to stand. I've reached my limit.
I can't tell you the secrets that I've buried behind the gray-blue eyes you stare into. Because those fears I'm so desperately trying to escape. So I burn away, flesh and bone melting. The smoke becoming too toxic from the lies and whispers and misery that filled me. But I can't cry.
I see nothing but darkness but my eyes aren't closed. I feel a soft material, torn but so relieving. And the angel's radiance reaches me so I can't breathe. There is a taste of acid on my lungs, throat, and tongue. My life is nothing but dirt, poisoned and sad.
The angel grabs a h
I find hope below the starsI'm not here to wish on a star tonight because I know it will not come true.
I am here to find hope in the sky. Where I send my prayers and I hope that they make it high enough for someone to see them from below.
I promise you I'm not perfect. I try to be honest, I try not to lie but my thoughts catch up to me and I lose it all. So I sleep with nightmares in my thoughts. But at least when I say I am falling, I'm not lying.
Maybe as I wait here on this hilltop someone sees my prayers and will come join me. And they will not judge, they'll save my soul. So I wait underneath stars that are being wished on but not by me. Not tonight. Tonight I find hope.
And I'm swaying on clouds above me, following my prayers where angels lay to grant me hellos. They smile and kiss me on the forehead. They don't judge, they're saving my soul. I'm dreaming in a halo of ang
Making a wish on the sunI should have set my mind on the sun instead of the stars because the sun shines brighter, bigger, longer.
There's a piece of you in my heart, beating with the blood I carry through these veins and it keeps me alive. I want to make every second last because this sorrow is something that will drown me down below where fallen angels lay. I kiss your lips and whisper "Tomorrow is what makes us want to wait for a better ending."
We're not following their footsteps we're making a dream come true. I feel weightless, over this sky where I watch you smile up at me. Yes this is us in a time vortex, where we're going no where but tomorrow.
And we lay below the stars and wait for tomorrow so we can make a wish on the sun.
A secretI have a secret that I'd like to yell.
I'd love to let go of this hell,
I lived through. So I open my mouth
and hope to god that someone is listening to
what I have to shout.
But I'm left alone, in the darkness
because everyone is so selfish.
And I'm talking to the voices inside my head
and all I know is that maybe tomorrow
I'll be asked to repeat what I've said.
While for now I'll keep my head up,
trap my arms in these handcuffs and pray
that it's enough.
Because you hold the cards in this game we play,
while you watch me cry
for a single human to look me in the eye
and tell me a secret.
[transmissions of a dead girl]i am the
moon: i am
the silver pill
to weigh down
into leaden eyes--
i am the
of the dark.
the stars are
all dead in their
you'll be safe, dear,
as i am the moon,
with all of your
(i am good bye and yet,
you think only of romantic
i am the moon.
i am the crescent
and dead altogether,
i still die.
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